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new home for the blog.

2010-12-31T21:13:00.000-08:00

Thank you to all of you for the loyalty to this blog. I have officially moved the site. I have taken this blog to a NEW and IMPROVED location. You can find me at: http://www.dawngarcia.com AND http://www.writeslave.org

confessions of a writer. part one.

2010-12-28T15:16:00.000-08:00

writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia. - e.l. doctorowwhen you tell anyone you’re a writer, they kind of look at you. there’s a long pause and then they say, “have you written anything I might have seen?” and then you proceed to say that on top of it, you’re a screenwriter. to which they immediately reply (eyes widened), “have you written any movies I may have seen?” and

It's a Wonderful Life

2010-12-23T18:55:00.000-08:00

Strange, isn't it? Each man's life touches so many other lives. When he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he? - George Bailey, It's a Wonderful Life We often forget at this time of year that it isn't about the gifts we get or the things we buy. It's about the people we love. This year I am particularly missing quite a few people that had to leave this world for some

a 3 year-old and an ambulance.

2010-12-18T07:23:00.000-08:00

First of all, forgive the run-on sentences, poor grammar, and possible chaos in this blog. I know I said I was off but after an ambulance ride (by the way, nowhere near as cool as the ambulance scene in "About A Boy") and seeing my 3 year-old in traction, being surrounded by paramedics - well, var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']

in the name of Barney.

2010-12-15T15:15:00.000-08:00

“I believe in Michaelangelo, Velasquez, and Rembrandt; in the might of design, the mystery of color, the redemption of all things by BEAUTY everlasting, and the message of ART that has made these hands blessed. Amen. Amen.” - George Bernard Shaw The beauty he speaks of only dwells in art. And artists. You know when you wake up and you realize, holy shit! I got a second

delish

2010-12-12T11:34:00.000-08:00

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A moral and intellectual emergency.

2010-12-11T10:47:00.000-08:00

“According to the most common interpretation of biblical prophecy, Jesus will return only after things have gone horribly awry. Imagine the consequences if any significant component of the U.S. government believed that the world was about to end and that its ending would be glorious. The fact that nearly half of the American population apparently believes this should be considered a moral

2010-12-10T12:44:00.000-08:00

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URBN: Innovation and Recycling at its best

2010-12-09T10:33:00.000-08:00

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gay marriage and stupid people.

2010-12-08T16:30:00.000-08:00

“Democracy means simply the bludgeoning of the people by the people for the people.” - Oscar Wilde How many times are we going to discuss gay marriage? How many times are gay couples going to be treated as some inbred cousin instead of with the dignity and respect deserved? I live in California. A state that is supposedly known for its open-mindedness and the entertainment industry. Well, I

empathy vs. apathy

2010-12-06T18:28:00.000-08:00

“I have a very strong feeling that the opposite of love is not hate-it’s apathy. It’s not giving a damn.” - Leo Buscaglia We live in a world often clouded by self-consumption. We forget that somewhere women are not heard. Women in Afghanistan are setting themselves on fire to var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function

Perspective.

2010-12-06T13:27:00.000-08:00

“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.” - Friedrich Nietzche Writing from the heart often is the only way. However, often times --- your heart gets in the way of your head and you tend to say way too much. var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga =

I've got one joke, people - just one.

2010-11-27T20:51:00.000-08:00

Value yourself. var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/javascript'; ga.async = true; ga.src = ('https:' == document.location.protocol ? 'https://ssl' : 'http://www') + '.google-analytics.com/ga.js'; var s = document.getElementsByTagName('script'

love and other drugs.

2010-11-26T13:04:00.000-08:00

(This picture to the left is love. Raw, broken, funny, sweet, honest - but above all, perfectly flawed.) The past is something that can haunt us if we let it. var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/javascript'; ga.async = true; ga.src = ('https:'

love. apology. being grateful. and other things.

2010-11-23T19:50:00.000-08:00

Today I had a therapy session and I just dug right into the pain. It's remarkable how deep that pain is, how far back it goes. And yet the one thing that resonates is only relative by looking at relationships. var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/

broken and rebuildling.

2010-11-21T08:53:00.000-08:00

Time to be honest. I write about love and hope and dreams and I write those things with conviction. I also write about all of my faults and my regrets which are in plenty. I have spent the last 10 years of my life slowly losing parts of myself and am only now learning to reclaim them. I was married and while it was to a wonderful man, neither one of us were truly being ourselves and so in the

Anyonmity.

2010-11-18T21:03:00.000-08:00

I'm going for a weekend of writing and anonymity. Tomorrow, I start with dancing. Going out alone. Just need to dance. On the search for a good club with incredible music - something to move to. Saturday: var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/

The Human Heart - and Love

2010-11-17T22:14:00.000-08:00

“Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/javascript'; ga.async = true; ga.src = ('https:' == document.location.protocol ? 'https://ssl' : 'http://www') + '.

VideoBlog #7 - Kill them with Kindness

2010-11-12T22:15:00.000-08:00

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.~Herm Albright I did another video blog and while the tone is var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/javascript'; ga.async = true;

the film world is an exceptional one.

2010-11-11T22:26:00.000-08:00

Life is so filled with adversity. We chase our tails. We search for what's real, what is tangible, what isn't lost in the realm of chaos and possibility. The thing is, we've all been kicked in the gut. We've all had rude awakenings. We've all had to reassess our own lives. I find it utterly intriguing to get sucked into the vortex of "acceptability" only to realize there's no real need. When you

52 Random Acts of Kindness

2010-11-09T14:42:00.000-08:00

"Writing is my form of expression. The way I stand up for injustice, speak my mind, vent about heartache or hurt, ponder the possibilities, protect what is valuable, question those who believe tearing down another is even remotely ok. Writing is my loudest voice and I have to make it count." - Dawn Garcia Much like the magic jumping beans I bought for my baby this weekend, things in life are

3 things. And a jam session.

2010-11-05T13:25:00.000-07:00

Three things: 1) Follow the blog. And Follow me on Twitter (writeslave)2) Sometimes you just need to get away and so, secret weekend getaway, I'm almost there. (And say it with me: "Sometimes, tequila and var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/

Seek truth, endure suffering.

2010-11-03T20:27:00.000-07:00

“If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is compromise.” My PDC just sent this to me. It is absolutely essential to where I am at right now. I took a few hours off of writing to be a mom and before getting back to writing tonight, wanted to re-post this (for those keeping track, I'm at 150pgs).

120 pgs - done.

2010-10-29T20:34:00.000-07:00

“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is the way great spiritual giants are produced.” - Swami Vivekananda 120 pages are completed and 80 more to go. I then have to trash 50 and edit 150

Healthcare Companies: the bullets.

2010-10-28T15:19:00.000-07:00

So while I tend to talk a lot about emotion and "feelings" and our own personal betterment, I would like to take a moment to complain and make personal attacks against our friggin' government. In a world that seems to be belly-up, it seems the economy in this country is right on board. The job market, the housing market, the continual demise brought on by health insurance var _gaq = _gaq || []

Important things you should always say.

2010-10-23T20:42:00.000-07:00

After watching this VideoBlog, I would like to encourage all of you to comment and give me your 4: I'm Sorry, I Believe, I Can, I Will. (Please spread the word and share the blogs with anyone who might enjoy...) Things I think are important to say: 1. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I get emotional. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry that sometimes your behavior hurts me so deep I can barely breathe.

Understand the beauty in diversity...

2010-10-23T14:39:00.000-07:00

“Those who hate most fervently must have once loved deeply; those who want to deny the world must have once embraced what they now set on fire.” At some point in our lives we have to grow from experience, learn from our past mistakes, and vow never to be the reckless, careless, hurtful people we're var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_

It Gets Better...

2010-10-20T17:12:00.000-07:00

Google, this one's for you. Bigotry is bigotry. It's not "god" or "religion" that makes you an asshole. It's just you! So I would like to remind you all to look in the mirror. I know a lot of the fear of homosexuality is just that. You don't understand it. And in turn you allow your own fears to transmit into anger and anger doesn't solve ANYTHING! We live in a world where children, 5 year-old

be bold and fight for what matters.

2010-10-19T22:37:00.000-07:00

“Whatever you do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius and power and magic in it.” So, I think those of you reading this know that, at heart, I am a dreamer. Not the kind of dreamer that waits in the wings and "hopes" my dreams will come true. The kind of dreamer that puts everything out there and does all I can to see my dreams come true. Sometimes the dreams are crushed and hurt

let's go vintage...

2010-10-15T13:50:00.000-07:00

You know that feeling when you open your eyes and you think, "ahh, that's done. I'm finally done" and it var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga = document.createElement('script'); ga.type = 'text/javascript'; ga.async = true; ga.src = ('https:' == document.location.protocol ? 'https://ssl' : 'http://

videoBlog #4

2010-10-14T23:17:00.000-07:00

It takes a lot to write what I do. It takes a lot to trust others with the darkest, most vulnerable parts of oneself. It takes a lot to recover from death and abuse and being misunderstood - regularly. It takes a lot to write about a painful relationship and still somehow find some redemption in it. I am driven. I have focus. But I have feelings. 80% of you seem to respond to that and in some way

joie de vivre

2010-10-13T11:07:00.000-07:00

"I have found that a spark of joy, a reminder that no matter how much it hurts, you're capable of better, can change your world. Truth is, some things aren't meant to work. Try a new approach to living, to loving, to enjoying --- THAT is evolution. I like evolution. Choice. I choose to be happy. And it IS a choice. Stop thinking things happen "TO" you and realize life is giving you a chance

stop functioning and start living...

2010-10-09T18:11:00.000-07:00

A writer doesn't write to spew out a bunch of words. A writer cuts open their veins and lets the blood drip as we type. We expose the only thing we have. Everything. - Dawn Garcia "The Big C" I watch that new Showtime show, "The Big C" and for anyone who hasn't watched it, please do so immediately. Not only is it a superb cast and incredibly well written, the premise is profound. Often times

VideoBlog# 3

2010-10-09T01:55:00.000-07:00

(I initially got this quote wrong in the live version - chalk it up to exhaustion...) It takes a lot of strength to love but there is a quote I believe is the only way it can work: "If you can't love me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe. When it's real, you never run away. You never walk away. var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']);

A beautiful mess...

2010-10-05T13:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we forget who we are. We get caught up in events happening "to" us or "with" us or "around" us and we lose the epitome of "me". Of "you". We let go of that instinctive need to be okay with who we are and stop apologizing. For me, I feel like I'm constantly having to apologize for being "emotional" or too open about what's happening. People are offended or annoyed because somehow

eternal sunshine of my spotless mind

2010-10-03T14:25:00.000-07:00

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Just the way you are...

2010-10-02T14:45:00.000-07:00

trust me, we think the same thing.

2010-10-02T13:08:00.000-07:00

what. love. can. mean.

2010-10-02T13:05:00.000-07:00

damn if I don't LOVE Glee...

2010-09-22T20:07:00.000-07:00

Goddamn I love Glee. Yes. Love. If I could just give up on my quest for love for a while and watch Glee, well, I am. Forget all this craziness. I'm in for Glee. That's the plan. Pathetic? No way. Do you know how nice it is to have a show that you flip on and everything, and I mean everything, doesn't even matter for an hour. I sing, I dance, I smile. I mean, smile from my gut and I am SO grateful

embrace the unexpected

2010-09-22T13:06:00.000-07:00

never give up, never surrender...

2010-09-21T12:37:00.000-07:00

We fight a long time to claim our identities. Sometimes serious evolution happens within us because something like divorce happens where you finally have the courage to say, "I want more" out loud. Only your statement is heard in volumes far louder than var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']); (function() { var ga =

Because no matter what, I will always try...

2010-09-01T18:03:00.001-07:00

It's not easy being the woman who is divorced. Often questioning how others see you, especially when they see you're a single mom and they naturally let out a sigh that seems more patronizing than comforting. It's not easy being a single parent. It's not easy doing a lot of things but then, if it was, what would be the point? Do I miss being married? Sometimes. The familiarity, the ease, the

Sinkin Soon

2010-08-29T22:30:00.000-07:00

(My chosen soundtrack for this blog: Norah Jones "Sinkin Soon") I have written about it time and time again. True Blood is a show that goes so deep into who we are and what we are capable of, there is nothing else like it. I watch it and it is so far beyond vampires and werewolves, fairies, and V. This show explores the true grit and ambivalence prevalent in our lives every day. I think we've

A little Glee never hurt anyone...

2010-08-26T12:16:00.000-07:00

Sometimes there is a show that just makes you feel good about life. Between "Glee" and "Modern Family", I feel liberated and entertained - and HAPPY after watching. It has been a long time since that has happened. Life these days is so unassuming. So twisted, so full of unknowns. I am lost in a life that allows me to give all of my love to my daughter and all of my passion to my words. Sometimes

Here we are again, CA

2010-08-20T22:19:00.000-07:00

While I have been so hopeful about California and it's turn of events regarding Prop H8, I became physically sickened when I saw it was being upheld. (Why do I still call it Prop H8? Because when you attempt to strip an individual of civil rights and liberties protected in our Constitution I tend to think your heart is covered in some sort of dark, evil cancer.) First we protested. Then the "

Try not to think.

2010-08-20T21:42:00.000-07:00

I breathe. I bite down on my lower lip. I pick at my nails. I distract myself. I ignore. I imagine. I pick up my book and I read. I write. I get lost in the pages because the story I'm adapting couldn't be more apropos for today.

If Historical Events had Facebook Statuses...

2010-08-16T11:37:00.000-07:00

I love it when people are clever ... enjoy a good read. And laugh - and perhaps you will find yourself enlightened: If Historical Events had Facebook Statuses By Wylo Read more: If Historical Events had Facebook Statuses | Cool Material http://coolmaterial.com/roundup/if-historical-events-had-facebook-statuses/#ixzz0wnN7AWBC

The mind of a 3 year old

2010-08-01T11:14:00.000-07:00

Ahh, bath time. I realize every single day how incredibly vivid my daughter's imagination is (and what part I've had to play in it!). Here is an example of bath time. She has the washcloth on her shoulder. Why? It's her pet snake racker. He talks and when he talks he sounds like a little old Jewish woman - her accent. Then she takes a lid to a container and fills it with soap as she plants it on

don't forget

2010-07-19T16:46:00.000-07:00

I always wonder what happens to people. We have all become so reliant on technology, we forget how to be human. We have become so enthralled with superiority we forget to live. We have become so consumed with perfection, we forget to love. Above all, we have gotten so enveloped by the feelings of being elite or intoxicated by the possibility of abundant success we are forgetting to breath;

Damien Rice: Coconut Skins (live)

2010-07-10T17:43:00.000-07:00

Oh Dorian, you get me.

2010-07-07T18:52:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it isn't always profound. Sometimes you just look in the mirror and think, "oh fuck" I have an entire screenplay to write. An adaptation of a novel known throughout Europe. In fact, it's been assigned to students in every nation. It's been done with carelessness and so here I am. var _gaq = _gaq || []; _gaq.push(['_setAccount', 'UA-2147774-8']); _gaq.push(['_trackPageview']);

Collecting Jars of Hearts...

2010-07-06T14:07:00.000-07:00

I listened to this song "Jar of Hearts" and then "Love the Way you Lie" and I can feel that my heart is in such a strange place these days. On the fence of my future and the hurt from a recent past. I know we all make mistakes - we all get hurt but you can't be careless with someone's heart. Once that happens, we lose a part of ourselves. You hurt someone and you break off a piece of yourself.

Be naked and free...

2010-06-29T20:19:00.000-07:00

“If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is compromise.”All too often we get caught up in living or drama or the "things" that happen "to" us. What we tend to forget is there really is a reason for everything. Sometimes our lives take a turn for the worst and we are overcome with grief or loss or

Top 3 ...

2010-06-21T12:03:00.000-07:00

I love the smell of napalm in the morning. Well, ok, you got me. I'd much rather smell incense, fresh berries with mint, and freshly brewed coffee but it seems cool to say the other one. So this week I had an adventure of extraordinary proportions. I had fun. I laughed. I loved. I drank. I skipped. I jumped. I got dressed up. I ate. I played. I wrote. I LIVED! Let me tell you guys something:

be a kid.

2010-06-13T00:00:00.000-07:00

I have had a plethora of adventures in my life. Some good, some insane, some tragic, some mind blowing, some beautiful, and some sensual. Either way what an extraordinary "lot" of steps that got me here. Totally going to sidetrack for a second and say that all of us need to start remembering how simple life can be. Go ahead, go to 7-11 and get a blue raspberry Slurpee. You know you want to. Or go

A little advice for the fellas - and the ladies.

2010-06-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

Oh fellas ... I watched you last night working your "game" and I was the one on the receiving end for quite a few of you and this blog, I devote to you. Let's start with your openers. Putting your arm around my waist and pulling me close to introduce yourself is, well, creepy. I don't find you indulging or "hot" or even much of a "playa" just kind of a sad and desperate attempt at getting laid

Make love to me again...

2010-05-30T16:48:00.000-07:00

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D-day

2010-05-24T22:01:00.000-07:00

I need to breathe...

2010-05-17T20:35:00.000-07:00

open your eyes...

2010-05-13T23:33:00.000-07:00

re-evaluate what you see.

2010-05-11T14:25:00.000-07:00

“Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be”... Once in a while something happens and it forces me to re-evaluate the way I'm approaching life and success. A divorce, a wake up call, single parenting, the sudden realization that my future is entirely up to me - it makes you set yourself straight. So while on some days

Beautiful

2010-04-27T22:28:00.000-07:00

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Vegas - let's do this.

2010-04-23T06:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you have days where you just feel like telling everyone to stop calling and stop texting and stop being so damn consumed with their agenda's and more concerned about living life. But - you can't. Or you can but then everyone - and I do mean - everyone would get all "uppity" and well, it isn't so fun. So here I am. I'm up and it's early and my head is heavy with exhaustion. Even looking

Holy hell! My precious laptop is back...

2010-04-01T13:44:00.000-07:00

Life without a computer. At first I went into shock. Like heart pounding, holy hell, shock. But then I realized, wait, I can read! I can laugh! I can actually - call people! And then I reminded myself that there is still that good ole standby - a pen and paper. Yes folks, they still make those things. And so now, my happy little MacBook is back with me. My overly excited fingers typing away while

According to you

2010-03-18T13:12:00.000-07:00

Most of us have heard this song but seriously, this is liberating, right? So amazing when the things someone else tells you are terrible traits aren't really terrible because when you find the right person, they see YOU and they love you. The right person will see all of your flaws as utterly beautiful. Here's to the kickass people in our lives!! Enjoy... Lyrics to "According to You" by Orianthi

My backpack is full.

2010-03-11T22:50:00.000-08:00

"Imagine that your life is a backpack. All of your life is just sitting on your shoulders. Burn it. Burn all of it." - Up in the Air Going somewhere and never coming back sounds like heaven. Today was a burdensome day. I signed my divorce papers, broke up with my boyfriend, maybe made up with my boyfriend, hugged my daughter, had to hear a tale of a woman whose heart had died - and I never felt

War.

2010-03-07T14:53:00.000-08:00

War. It is by far man's greatest mistake. I watch movies like "Saving Private Ryan" or "No Man's Land" (Serbia and Bosnia) or epics like "Band of Brothers" and while most watch them and think we are heroes or the "other" side is the enemy, what I believe we often forget is that to them we are the enemy, no matter who we or they are. There is no finality to where friends and enemies begin and end

Dorian Gray

2010-03-05T09:03:00.000-08:00

INT. DORIAN GRAY’S BEDROOM, LONDON 1892 - DREAM. MORNING. The beginning of my future... Artist's are most always on the outside looking in. We are seldom understood but when we are in a room with others that know what that insanity and insatiable beauty is like, it is heaven. Last night I was in heaven. Surrounded by authentic and truly remarkable talent and vision. When you live in a world that

A man that might just save California...

2010-02-28T09:59:00.000-08:00

Forgive the quick nature of this post, I promise to be more concise and in-depth in future posts. I thought this man was worth taking a moment to mention and I have about, oh, 5 minutes before having to work on a project in steep "deadline" mode so - enjoy this and more info will follow. Had the great pleasure of working on a job with California's possible hope, Attorney General candidate, Chris

Time to take a step in the right direction

2010-02-25T16:23:00.000-08:00

I've had the sudden urge to write much more than in the past. Words continually moving up to the surface in need of release. I think perhaps the need to say so much is because I keep running into to people or issues that seem to ignite my passions for bettering both myself and others. If we fall into the trap that is placed in front of us, we can't possibly move forward. As a mom, I find what

Say what you will...

2010-02-24T21:16:00.000-08:00

Some may see a tangled mess, I see utter possibility... Some say that life isn't really all that its cracked up to be. I say, I'm grateful for that. If life was what our idea of it is supposed to be, we'd never be challenged to become incredible human beings. I'd never have been challenged to reach further than the limitations everyone, or most everyone, attempts to place on me. I would never

release...

2010-02-24T10:18:00.000-08:00

"I write for the same reason I breathe -because if I didn't, I would die." Isaac Asimov (1920 - 1992)Some people do math or create equations, some people design clothing, some people take your order, some people create your site, some people take your money, some people prepare your food, some people open their arms, some people open their hearts, some take care of their children, some get in the

We're failing...

2010-02-20T23:19:00.000-08:00

You know, in some way or another, we've all been an outcast at some point in our lives. Some of us still are or perhaps we all are. It doesn't matter what it is that separates you from "everyone else", what matters is that you are separate. You are different and unique and so f*n what if they can't embrace who you are. It doesn't matter if you look "acceptable" on the outside if you're suffering

Words can be toxic

2010-02-13T11:24:00.000-08:00

"The secret of being a bore is to tell everything." - Voltaire Two reasons why you should cut out the poison in your life: 1) It's toxic and degrading.2) It's not your poison, it is theirs. Let them keep it. As someone who believes in the power of words, I can honestly say that there are millions that grossly misuse them. However when it hits super close to home and people whom you put your

Remember love is all there is...

2010-02-08T22:33:00.000-08:00

It takes a lot of courage to do what you did. To walk away from a life that, on the surface, seemed quaint and easy. But what they didn't know is the nights you spent quiet and crying in the bathroom, lying on the floor, arms wrapped around your knees, begging for something to change. Hoping so much for love and freedom that it was almost like a disease had taken over your flesh and your heart

The basics

2010-01-26T08:50:00.000-08:00

Every day I'm reminded of the most basic of things that we need in this world to survive and flourish. Of which is love and kindness and validation. So to those of you struggling to make ends meet or creating utter beauty or taking the time to ask the girl at Starbucks how her day is going, give yourself some credit. You deserve some recognition because you are contributing to the goodness in

"Without music, life would be a mistake."- Nietzsche

2010-01-21T13:53:00.001-08:00

A beautiful song… Looking out the door I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water And maybe I’m too young to keep good love from going wrong But tonight you’re on my mind so you never know When I’m broken down and hungry for your love with no way to feed it Where are you tonight, child you know how much I need it Too

Maybe we never will smile that way again...

2010-01-21T12:56:00.000-08:00

Trying to smile from that beautiful place inside... A friend of mine recently told me that there is a picture of him a while ago with this smile on his face at his wedding. He said with all that has happened in life since then, it's sad that he'll never see that smile on his face again. I understood that because I wonder if I'll ever have that smile again. That one smile - The one that

A retraction. And evolving. And accepting.

2010-01-14T17:17:00.000-08:00

You know, when you're in the middle of a divorce, so many emotions come out - the worst of which is anger. Last month I had hit the final stage of anger in the divorce. I had already started moving on with my life, as well as my ex but I took a seemingly innocent situation that I came across from him and I let it hurt me. I can't say it was one of my finest moments and I have to say I took

The gift horse - aka, not taking a trip.

2010-01-07T13:45:00.000-08:00

(First off, please forgive the flow of this blog... I'm just going to let it all out) Much like the plane in this picture, something seemingly well put together got a crack in it and as a result, a piece broke off. It's costly and emotional but not irreparable. There are just better ways to build a stronger structure. Some things, however, aren't that simple. When you speak your mind a lot (

Just something light

2010-01-07T10:30:00.001-08:00

Something that keeps my mind sharp and my humor in tact:

film is the warm tingly bit deep inside

2009-12-30T09:32:00.001-08:00